[FREE] I try. Always.

     This whole month has been alot on me.  Trying to be there everyone I care about.  I can't help it, it's who I am.  I try my best to be there for all of them.  When they aren't themselves, depressed, in pain, angered, all kinds of emotions.  I ask them if they want to talk or if they need space because they know that I'm always there for them.  I promised everyone that I would always be there for them no matter what and I always keep my promises.  I know you have heard this before and it's a bunch of BS but as you get to know me, you will know who I am and what I am about.  People make promises but some don't always follow through with it.  That's when I say that they are just empty words spoken from one's mouth to relieve another.  For me, I've grown up to realize many things and through my realizations I choose my own way, the kind of person I want to be.
     My friends and family always come first before anything else.  When they need me I'm there.  I don't care if it does get me in trouble for awhile as long as my friends and family are fine.  They are my number one priority before me.  I know it may sound stupid, but my inspiration comes from an ABC Family television show that was cancelled, called Kyle XY.  The character Kyle is a genuine person that is always there for his family and everyone that he cares about.  He always does the right thing no matter what, gathering up information and putting the pieces together to help others without hurting anyone emotionally or physically.  He's a pure person that you must actually watch the full series to know what I mean.  He is literally what someone would call a perfect person.  He is my role model.  In my head, when I am stuck on something and someone needs me I would always ask myself what would Kyle do and it always leads me down the right path.  I try my best to always be there. Always.

[RE] I need a break

My response to Angela Zhou.

"It’s the seventh week of school. My tiredness almost takes over all of my other feelings. I lost all of the motivation for going to school and doing my homework."

     I can relate to what she is saying.  I know I have homework during the week and I am always procrastinating and beginning to do things last minute.  Before senior year began, I told myself that I have to do my best for my last year, because my junior year was terrible.  I started out good this school year but now motivation is lowering.  In class, I try to stay awake as much as I can and when the teacher lectures, my head starts bobbing up and down trying desperately to prevent my eyes from closing.  Let me just tell you, I look like a fucking retard.  People ask if I am okay and all I can say is that I am tired as hell.  When it comes to teaching for me, the teacher needs to animate his/her class or make it more exciting somehow or the class will be boring which forces me to put my head down.  I understand that teachers are suppose to be teaching the material for the students to learn something but can't they do something to keep the class interested because if nothing happens, we can't focus because it just words that are being said out loud but it goes out the other ear.  Especially when we are all in classes that we have no interest in whatsoever.  If we do not like the class then it is a lot harder to focus.  Going to school for all these years and it's the same thing for so long, it's like can something change?  Keep teaching and have all the education but change something.  I do not know what else to say but Change or we need a break.

[FREE] Music is Emotion

     Music.  Millions of people around the world listen to them every single day.  Different types satisfy different people, rap, hip-hop, pop, RnB rock, alternative, jazz, country, metal and some that I probably cannot name at the moment.  Music relaxes the soul.  Kids are growing up with it; they fall asleep listening to music whether it is by a radio, an iPod, an mp3 player or the sound of their mother's voice.  Everyday when teenagers and adults walk to school or work, you see them with their earphones plugged in, mouthing the words, bouncing their heads to the beat, or just peacefully listening to each harmonic, melodic note that passes through their ears.
     To me, I find it amazing.  People listen to all kinds of music and some even actually identify the instruments that are being played.  Music is just like technology, it is constantly advancing.  You find kids on youtube not using any instruments at all to create music.  They beat box or combine the different sounds that they can make with their mouths or body parts and make it into their instrumental background.  People enjoy listening to celebrities sing and even just talented singers that have not yet been discovered.  Fans of non-yet-famous singers sometimes actually try to get them famous by putting them on an interview with Ellen or something and they don't even know it until they receive a phone call.  To me that is a blessing for fans to do that for someone.
     My point is music is something that you will live with throughout your life and, it is something that you should not only listen to but also feel.  The lyrics in songs actually happen in real life and we end up crying at times because you can't help but feel that the lyrics in a song is actually what you're feeling and sometimes you want them to go away.  You also have music that cannot stop listening to because it really... I don't want to use the word "hit" because it's more gentle... it really, touches your heart.  Music can be a way of listening to your emotions in a tune that you enjoy. Listen. Feel.

Going For The Look

     There are two sides to which you can agree or disagree on.  One side is the business side, hiring "good-looking" girls to advertise their merchandise and the other side is the discrimination side.  When customer looks at a billboard with a pretty girl it, they are immediately attracted and go to their store to see what they have.  Just because they believe it looks good on them, companies believe that this is the best way to attract customers.  They do not care about who they are, but only on their looks to make money.  In a way, this is a business seduction technique which brings me to the discrimination side.
     This technique can lead to age, race, and religious discriminations that can put many in jail.  Did I forget to mention gender discrimination?  Everyone notices that the majority of advertisements for these companies have are girls.  This gives the impression that guys do not have an equal attraction as girls "do", therefore can men be hired for the business image?  I know that experts and businesses mindsets' are set on a default advertising technique, but there are and always will be other ways.  "Think outside of the box", I know what you're think.  You've heard that before, a cliche that many use when peoples' imaginations are running low, but it's true.  Tell me it isn't.
     Many people say that we are becoming a paperless world because technology is being used more and is constantly advancing.  If we have technology, why don't they use it to create an advertisement that will draw customers in?  It doesn't have to be technology but something else.  When you try to hire girls that "can" project an image for their business, you can also make others feel insecure in comparison and believe that they are not pretty enough depending on the person.  It's a pattern, a chain, a domino reaction.  One thing always leads to another.
     We all only get smarter and discover new things.  As time progresses, one or a few will look deeper in society and catch something that they do not agree with.  This disagreement can lead to protests which can lead to an international protest because others may feel the same type of discrimination.  I know that when I say international, you are somewhat thinking that I'm exaggerating, but think about it.  This is only my own opinion.  I am only expanding the possibilities of what CAN happen.  Although, it doesn't mean that anything I am saying will come true.  Before any of this, they must look at both sides of the situation, the bigger picture.  Am I getting off topic? This is what I have to say, everything is connected in one way or another.  My answer for this article is that I neither agree nor disagree.  If it's for business, "sure".  If they talk to me about discrimination, I will agree that it is discrimination.

[CE] A Hero

    All I can do is watch, listen and at try to imagine what this man is feeling.  I mean he is brave to enter the army, and fight for his country but for him to be short of breath because one of his lungs is somewhat deflated it hard to feel.  Sure I have felt short of breath at times and I breath slowly to catch my breath, but in comparison to what this man is feeling is just unimaginable.  1st SGT Mike, the medic of their squad was a hero to have so quickly reinflate his lungs so that he can breath and this is a miracle.  Another amazing moment is that once Mike had inflated his lungs, that man had enough air to be a pilot and fly a plane back into war.  Bravery, fighting for our country, courage, determination and inspiration are the words I choose to describe everything that is happening in the war.
     There are two sides: one is when someone volunteers to serve their country and goes to war and the second side is when that someone's family is watching him/her go to war.  The one who volunteers knows the risk he or she is taking and wants to serve their country being brave, modest yet determined.  His/her family  can only hope for the best and each day that he/she is gone, they hope and pray that nothing happens for them to return home safe as a happy family again.  There are so much pain and happiness that I have seen through the looks on peoples' faces but I haven't actually felt them.  It's confusing I know.  I have felt the basic pain; when you scrape your knee from tripping on a sidewalk, and happiness; when your little sister graduates from elementary school, but I haven't felt pain of losing someone in a war or death in the matter or happiness/relief from when your brother comes back from the war.  People feel joy inside and happy for those people they see on television but sometimes they never go deeper to try to feel what's been on their mind or in their heart while the event was still happening.  I guess I'm trying to say that I am thankful for having family with me and thankful for soldiers in the war fighting for our country.

[FREE] Alot

     It seems like this is all happening at once.  There is so much that is going through my mine that it is hard to organize all out.  I mean I come to a new school and know a few people, my first and last year at Alameda High School.  I miss all my friends at Encinal High School, fooling around just being myself.  Everything about Encinal is just so much better to me, I'm sorry to all those Hornets that are reading this lol, but Jet Pride!  I have met a few cool and nice people here in all of my classes but it is nothing compared to what I have at Encinal.  In addition, to leaving all my friends, I am taking classes here that I did not even know existed that are not at my school.  Then after I graduate here,  college is next and that class that I want to graduate with are all going separate ways and there is probably nothing I can really do about it.  After school this year, I have to go straight home until I keep my grades at a B average at least for the next six months then I get my freedom back.  I have friends at Encinal that I have always said I will always be there for and it just makes it twice as hard going here and with my mom's additional restrictions.
     There's a lot this year that I have to get accomplished for my future but I do not want my future to be consumed by work, I want and need my social life to keep me balanced.  I am sure that I have mentioned this more than once before in my other blogs but it is true.  Some people here at Alameda High have given me a few smirks here and there but I deal with it.  There is so much that I want to do here, but I do not want to make a bad first impression.  My only freedom with my friends is on the weekends and that is also if my mom does not make last minute plans.

" I'm shy.  Most people don't take the time to get to know me.   They don't take the time to explore the real me.  So I'd like to thank everyone who has.  Everyone who didn't, missed out." - Wiz Khalifa

[RE] Govt Can and Should Get Involved, Yes or No?

     The government can and should have something to do with the clothes we wear only depending on the situation.  If they are covering themselves in a certain such as the face then, everyone can different or uncertain interpretation.  As mentioned, when someone's face is covered, people will think of robbery rather than religious reasons.  In this case, the government should take action.  I understand for women that showing skin in other different parts of the body can be sexually appealing and can be covered, but otherwise that should be their choice, their decision.  The government should only get involved under certain circumstances.  There are many different scenarios, they just have to know when.
     We should have the liberty to pray anywhere, however we want, as long as it does not cause public disturbance or trouble.  What I mean by this, is do not take advantage of the freedom, by praying in the middle of a traffic jam to prevent people from getting where they need to go.  Praying is part of freedom of religion and believing in a higher power and telling us not to pray is basically saying to stop believing in God.  Everyone should have that expression to pray wherever because most of us know that God is our faith that most of us believe in.  Most of us pray at random times just to believe even for the smallest things because most of us know He's there.  At this moment of even thinking about this freedom is now going by what the laws say.  Some are forgetting about the religious background and are focusing on the laws whether or not we should pray wherever we want.  From where I am standing, this subject should not be something to be questioned.